This describes my mood lately. It is so-so. If I let my mind follow my feelings I’m afraid I would spiral downward. Why the melancholy mood? Mainly because my daughter is moving the end of this month to Georgia. Every day is marked with, “I won’t be able to do this with her…” thoughts. Make-up is futile. We have never lived far apart since the day she was born. I thought when she left my house on her wedding day was hard enough. It was, but this is even more so.
Yet life goes on. There is laundry to do, blogs to post, devotions to read, projects to complete and even weddings to plan. Not to mention caring for my son and his family, my daughter who still lives at home, and my husband who works hard and needs time with me. I can feel the pull to get in the car and just….go to the beach. But my feelings would only go with me, attempting to spoil that as well.
What do we do when our feelings are hijacking our joy? There is only one solution, and I believe it is the one God is after in the midst of these so-so moments. Pray! He desires us to come to Him with our so-so moods and offer them up in a sacrifice of praise. Suddenly the word “sacrifice” here makes much more sense. When you don’t feel happy, you certainly don’t feel like praising God. But when we lay our feelings aside and do it anyway – this glorifies God in a way our good days never can.
This can be applied to our marriage too. How many times have you simply not felt very loving toward your spouse? Romance is so-so. Your commitment is there, just no intense or passionate feelings. The answer is simple really – we keep doing what we know to do. Keep acting like you feel passionate and your feelings will follow. Is this faking it? It can “feel” like it, but again our feelings are misleading us. It is good for our minds to tell our feelings what to feel. When we do the opposite and let our feelings tell our minds we become self-focused and are greatly tempted to self-pity.
I know this post is unusual for The Romantic Vineyard. I am giving you a glimpse into my heart, and the struggle I’m facing. I hope hearing how God is helping me, will help you see His hand at work in your life and in your marriage too.
I am feeling so-so grateful to God that He isn’t swayed by my emotions. Truth stands firm no matter how fickle the landscape, even when the landscape is leading away from my home to Georgia. 😦
How do you face these so-so moments?