Blank is what happens in my mind every chance I’ve had to write this post. I sit at the computer and stare.
I have the privilege of spending a few days in Atlanta with my daughter. I’m not feeling 100%, so the most activity we’ve had outside was an hour at the park this morning. With temps in the 50’s and a blustery wind, this was about all I could stand. We came home and watched Disney movies – first Mulan, then Jungle Book. And when we weren’t watching them, I was reading Tarzan and Mulan (again) to Norah before she went to bed.
The Disney Princess movies are predictable and relaxing because we know how the story ends. When Mowgli runs away because he doesn’t want to go to the man village, we know he’ll change his mind once he sees the girl. But our marriages aren’t always predictable and relaxing. We don’t know what tomorrow or even today will bring.
For instance, I agreed to babysit tonight so Seth and Tracy could have a much needed date night. While I was bathing the kiddos, the doorbell rang. It was Tracy. She and Seth had purchased a patio set for their back deck and were dropping it off before going to dinner when it happened – a heavy umbrella stand fell sideways on her big toe! In seconds it looked horrible, and I’m sure felt even worse. They were still able to finish their date together, but it wouldn’t be quite as relaxing as she had anticipated.
Life is full of such interruptions, and often times all we can do is push through it. I’ve just come out of a very busy and emotional season, and all I can do is continue to do what I know to do. I don’t know the happy ending or if the ending will go according to my hopes and prayers. But God knows. He is leading and guiding us in every mundane moment and every moment of turmoil. He is good. When I am tempted to stare blankly at the future it is good to remember God. The future isn’t blank to Him for He knows the plans He has for each of us, and it brings Him great glory as He watches us live our lives and devote our marriages to Him.
He enjoys the process as much as the ending – shouldn’t we?