This week Tom was away for two nights on business. Something I will never get used to. I don’t like sleeping alone, so to counter his absence I sleep on his side of the bed. I have found this helps me not reach over only to realize he’s not there. It disorients me enough to where I can sleep – usually.
But not last night!
My daughter woke me after I had just fallen asleep saying she saw a bug. We are Florida natives, but we h.a.t.e. bugs! And Tom wasn’t here to rescue us, so she sprayed the entire room and closed the door shut. It will probably stay shut until Tom finds the dead intruder, keyword: DEAD. It better be dead, if it’s not by chemicals, then it should be by drowning.
Two hours later I was back asleep only to hear a scratching on my bedroom door. No, it wasn’t a scene from a horror flick tormenting my imagination – it was my cat. He wanted out the front door because my daughter forgot to put him out due to the aforementioned “bug episode.” Not only was he still inside, but every light was on in the house! I put the cat out, turned off the lights and went back to Tom’s side of the bed.
Only one problem – I was wide awake!
Thankfully, we have a sleep timer on the TV, so I turned onwith the volume low and set it at 45 minutes. It worked, that is until two hours later when I was startled awake by….nothing. I tossed. I turned. Then the worst possible thing happened…
I started thinking.
As I thought I started worrying. I became anxious. Which led me to pray long and hard. I lifted to God all the thoughts that were trying to rob me in the night of my peace and rest.
It worked, this time for good. I fell asleep and didn’t wake until the sun was shining bright outside.
I only wish I felt rested – I was exhausted! How appropriate that my devotions for that morning began with this verse from Proverbs 30:
The man declares, I am weary, O God;
I am weary, O God, and worn out.
God knows me well and drew me into my devotions by connecting to the first thing on my mind – my weariness. I felt cared for and loved by Him.
Tom is home now and once again I can sleep. The bugs will be killed. The cat will be put out. The lights will be turned off. But most of all God will watch over us in the night as we sleep and even when we don’t.
He is with me and with you.