“It’s only a surface cavity,” My dentist explained. “You may not need novocaine at all. I’ll start drilling and if you feel any pain raise your hand.”
I’m ashamed to say I about took his head off!
Novocaine is a gift from God to help us through repairing a decaying tooth.
I just realized something—I am numb. There hasn’t been a novocaine shot, but this numbness is also a gift from God.
Tom and I have experienced so many challenges the last 5 years. Circumstances trying our endurance like a marathon to a 1st grader. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.
Everything we have ever said about marriage and leaning into each other during hard times has been tested.
We are numb.
The definition of numb is unable to think, feel, or react normally because of something that shocks or upsets you
On the surface you might think we are in a bad place. But we’re not. We realize God places his numbing agents on us as a mercy. He knows what we are made of. He knows our limits. Our circumstances have stretched us beyond what Mel Gibson endured at the end of Bravehart, at least it seems that way—that statement just reveals my own aversion to pain.
God is like my dentist, nudging me to try a little more to see what I’m able to endure.
We can see that the things that caused our heart to sink ten years ago now seem trivial in comparison to our current challenges.
If we look back we see the faithfulness of God walking with us, sometimes carrying us through dark valleys. The Bible says He is near to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. He has grown us and made us stronger.
I am thankful we are walking this road together. It may be painful but at least the burden is shared. This is part of what we promised on our wedding day-“for worse and in sickness”.
What a mercy. I’m raising my hand asking for God’s numbing grace to fix what is broken either in my circumstances or in my heart. He knows what we need before we ask.
In what ways is your marriage being stretched? Ask God to help—He is rich in mercy.