Mortified – Tom’s Turn

Debi has been sharing all week her battle in mortifying pride in her life. If you haven’t read them yet, please take time to. Here are the links: Part 1, Part 2, and Part 3.

Today we’re going to do a post in the way our good friends do–Brad and Kate from the One Flesh Marriage blog. We’re using the format of He Said, She Said. Why? Because it is an important exclamation point to the significant work God did in Debi’s heart during this extended season in our marriage.

First, you’ll hear from me and then, Debi will finish with her closing thoughts. We have prayed earnestly for all who will read this series, that God will move in the hearts of marriages to mortify pride in all its forms and to help couples grow deeper in humility.

He (Tom) said,

Today I want to share with you how the Lord used me in the process of helping her. I wish I could say I saw this sin clearly and had been praying for God to reveal it to her for years, but I didn’t.

I wish I could say I purposed to overlook this sin in an effort to love her as Christ loved the church, but honestly, I didn’t. Well, I did overlook the sin when I saw it, but my love for Debi isn’t based on what she does for me or how she does it, for that matter. My love for her is based on the way Christ has loved me and gave Himself for me. I have been forgiven so much in my life that it is easy to extend loving forgiveness to her when what she does seems to pale in comparison to my offenses towards God.

When Debi confessed to me her list my first thought was, “You really think that way?” And secondly, “I never noticed this attitude in you.” The first caused her to cringed a bit when I shared it with her, but it was obvious God was doing a deep work in her heart because she didn’t react. I did the only thing I knew to do–I held her tight reassuring her of my commitment and love for her.

I have always known it isn’t my job to change Debi; my job is to listen and try to understand. Only God working in her heart can bring attention to sins she and I are blind to. I don’t know if I was blind to her sin because my love exceeded anything she could say or do, or if I was blind because I wasn’t leading her as I should. Debi assures me it was the former.

At any rate, I’m grateful for the sanctifying work of the Holy Spirit in her life and in mine. We aren’t who we were 33 years ago by God’s grace. And we thank God He isn’t finished with us yet. We are in daily need of His grace to mold us into the person and couple He wants us to be. Our only duty is to obey Him in faith and trust.

She (Debi) said,

I have never once doubted Tom’s love for me. This truth was never more evident to me as when I was going through the wringer of God’s convicting love.

I was raised in a Christian home. I, for the most part, lived my life without rebellion or gross sins, typical of many from my growing up years. Unfortunately this paved the way for me to grow in pride and self-righteousness, rather than gratefulness to God for protecting me so many times and in so many ways. I used to think it was me being strong, arrogantly missing the work of the Lord in my heart.

When God brought Tom and me together, the thing that attracted me most to him, besides his love for the Lord, was his sincere love for me. He was an unselfish, grateful man willing to do whatever he could to make me happy. I knew then what a gift he was. I know now how much I needed this kind of love to help me see my sin.

I often think of how Tom could have reacted to my confession and what this would have done to my fragile heart. He never belittled me or made me feel ashamed for my sin. Shame has a way of tearing down relationships in a way nothing else can. I was tempted to feel ashamed, but Tom’s reassuring love and kind encouragements quickly diffused those thoughts. (If you are suffering from shame either for something that happened before you were married or after, we encourage you to get help. A post that will help you can be found here.)

So, as we finish this series, if you’re the one battling besetting pride and self-righteousness, let your spouse into the process. Trust them to be exactly what you need to be free from this suffocating grip.

If you are the spouse married to one who is confessing sin, remember these Scriptures and allow God to strengthen you by them:

Whoever covers an offense seeks love, but he who repeats a matter separates close friends. – Proverbs 17:9 ESV

Likewise, husbands, live with your wives in an understanding way, showing honor to the woman as the weaker vessel, since they are heirs with you of the grace of life, so that your prayers may not be hindered.  – 1 Peter 3:7 ESV (emphasis mine)

Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives, when they see your respectful and pure conduct. – 1 Peter 3:1-2 ESV (emphasis mine)

How have you helped your spouse in their fight against sin? Are you more of a help or a hindrance? God can work in you both according to His purposes, all we must do is ask and obey.

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Mortified – Part 3

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This is part three of a three part series on mortifying pride in my heart. I pray it will help you and help me as I remember this significant season in my life.

Part 3

I want to share with you a journal entry.  I wrote this after Tom had corrected me about seeing an area of pride.  I had asked him to point pride out to me whenever he saw it.  After confessing how God was revealing pride to me to another couple to whom we’re accountable, he said that I shared it all in a very animated, colorful way.  It seemed to him that I was prideful about seeing my pride!  This is what I wrote:

How right Tom is in correcting me!  My focus wasn’t on God who forgives, but on ME who saw my sin!  I was and am still impressed that I am seeing it, and I want others to know, so that they will see how I am mortifying pride – all the while pridefully enjoying the attention.  I see my pride as dirty laundry, thinking if I wash it, it will be okay.  This is a lie!  There is no such thing as “clean pride,” for this is what crucified my Lord.  God showed me that the vine that grows rampantly in my Secret Garden could have been the crown of thorns that Christ wore.  My pride was there on the Cross-that day, mocking and crucifying the One I say I love.  How can I so casually speak of it?  Father, help me to hate it!  Right now I just don’t like it, but I have no idea what it means to hate this sin.  May I not volunteer to casually speak of it or to give it an audience.  May I be ashamed of it, confess it and run from it.  Show me, Lord how to please You in my mortification of sin, instead of pleasing my reputation.  Help!

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Another example was after an extended season of serving a friend, I learned that she was going to be publicly sharing her testimony on a Sunday morning.  I was nervous because I didn’t know how I would handle her commending me in front of the entire church!  I took this matter to prayer, wanting to seek humility when God interrupted my thoughts with this question, “Why are you assuming she’ll even mention your name?” See how quickly my heart can be deceived?  I was once again brought low by the realization of my sin.  That Sunday, God in His mercy didn’t let her say a thing about me, which is what God wanted. If she had, I think this quote from Josh Harris would have been my experience:

“In place of true humility we learn certain words or phrases that we believe make us sound humble.  ‘Oh, really?  It was nothing’, or ‘Anyone could have done it.’ We cast our eyes down and shrug our shoulders or maybe even blush.  Of course, we don’t really mean it – inside we’re congratulating ourselves for how humble we look and feel.  We want the reputation but don’t know how to get to the reality.  Like children playing dress-up in their parents’ clothes, we’re only acting humble, none of it really fits us.”

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I’ll share another example.  Our church produced a Christmas production for many years called, The Bash.  I was on the Bash Team and had spent many months writing, directing and rehearsing with the cast of the finale.  When it finally came – it was a huge success!  The cast did a great job – and the audience was moved to tears mainly because the focus was on saying good-bye to those who would be leaving our church for a new church plant in January.

The following Wednesday was our home group meeting.  Tom became very sick and said he didn’t think he’d be able to make it.  I told him that I thought maybe I should go anyway, since we were fairly new to the group, and we wanted to show our support.  Tom told me I could do whatever I wanted.  So, I hopped in the car and was on my way – leaving my sick husband to fend for himself!

I got about two miles down the road when the Lord asked, “Why are you going to home group and leaving Tom at home?”  I thought the answer had already been determined.  Then, He answered His own question, “You are determined to go tonight only because you want to hear the people commend you on the Bash!”  Ugh!  So strong was this craving in me that I was willing to leave my sick husband.  Needless to say I turned around, went home and repented to Tom.

How did I know that this was God speaking to me?  Because I wouldn’t have had this thought on my own.  It was a small voice that nudged at my conscience.  I could have easily blown over it and justified my actions, but because I had been praying for God to show me this sin, He was allowing me to see what I had been blind to for years–the motives behind my actions.

Only God can Himself or through others, reveal to me the pride that grows in my sinful heart.  I am incapable of seeing it on my own.  And only God has made a way for me to change.  He knew before I ever took my first breath what a proud piece of work I would be, yet He still chose to lavish His grace on me.  He desires to walk with me daily helping me to change, one confession of pride at a time.  Why?  Why has He been so kind to me…to all of us?  The answer is simple, yet profound–because He loves us. What a Savior!   Because of Him,  we have hope!

Has there been a time in your life when God was pursuing your heart with such intensity? How did it effect your growth in godliness? How did it effect your love for the Savior? For your spouse? For others?

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Mortified – Part 2

Yesterday I began sharing with you one of the most significant times of growth in my life. It effected my marriage in a powerful way, and my prayer is my testimony will help others who may struggle with similar besetting sins. If you didn’t read it, please take a moment or today’s post won’t make as much sense.

Part 2

Two weeks later my month was completed, and I attempted to record in my journal all that I had heard God speak to me over the past few weeks.  He asked me to make a list looking over my life of evidences of pride.  Some of them were things I had never told anyone, and there was a reason for that!  I would be embarrassed for anyone to know about those thoughts and temptations.  The Lord told me when I finished my list that he wanted me to share all of this with Tom.  My response: Ew!!!  I really don’t want to do that!  What would he think of me?  The Lord reminded me that I had been asking Him to help me mortify my pride.  Suddenly, I wasn’t so eager to do this, because I realized that mortifying pride also meant being mortified myself!  BUT at the same time God was changing my heart, and I knew now that this was an issue of obedience.  I couldn’t say “no” to confessing my pride to Tom and expect to move on with the Lord.  He wouldn’t allow it, because He loves me and is committed to completing the work He’s begun in me.

In my prideful heart I wanted to focus on the word “complete,” when God was focusing on the word “work.”  There was definitely a lot of work to be done in my heart.  The more I saw of my pride, the more I saw of my pride!!  That is not a redundant statement, but full of truth.

Here’s a short list of things I confessed to Tom:

  • I have seen that I have a craving to receive recognition and to have a good reputation – for my glory – not God’s.
  • I arrogantly believe that strangers notice me in a crowd.
  • I love attention.
  • I love being in control of my family, of projects, of my time–this list is endless!
  • I often make myself the standard in judging others by what they do or don’t do.
  • Even when I worship there are many times I’m more focused on how I look to others, rather than to God.
  • I hate receiving correction, but I desire to look good to others. Although it may seem I have received someone’s input well, what’s going on in my heart is a stench to God.

How could I have lived so long and not seen all this?  “You have not because you do not ask!”  Wow, I had never really asked God to show me my pride and waited long enough for him to show me.  He was faithfully answering the prayers I had prayed.

Everywhere I looked I saw pride, and I’m not exaggerating.

Then, the Lord gave me this word picture:

I saw a secret garden that was overgrown with vines.  Underneath was a tiny plant that was being choked out by the vine.  I saw the gate open and others were invited in to help pull up the vines by their roots so that the little flower could begin to grow strong.

Photo Credit: Secret Garden by Eileen

This secret garden represented my heart.  I had secretly allowed prideful thoughts to grow, unchecked and unexposed.  The Lord opened the gate and bid me to invite others in to help me in pulling up the vines of pride; for they see things I would never see on my own.  And I can confess things that are in my heart that they would never see otherwise, another way to mortify the roots of pride.  Doing this will allow the little plant of humility to take root in my heart.

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The most important key for me is confessing my sin.  I have always heard the verse in 1 John 1 that says:

“8 If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

As I committed to confess my pride whenever I saw it, not only to God, but to those to whom I’m accountable, I had the assurance that God would forgive me of my sin, and cleanse me from all unrighteousness.  This gave me hope that I could make progress against this sin that had entangled my heart.  I was weak, but He was strong.  These are all truths found in God’s word that I know by heart, but suddenly they made much more sense.  I had fresh revelation that was giving me the grace I needed to say “No” to pride and pursue humility.

However, I had no idea that pride was rooted even deeper in my heart than I had seen. More about that tomorrow!

What sin/sins are you battling of which your spouse is unaware? Do you realize confession is a key component to forgiveness and freedom? What has kept you from inviting others into your secret garden?

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Mortified

Tom gave me a new garden for Mother’s Day. Planting everything took a lot of back-breaking work, but the results are beautiful. It was worth every pain. I have learned things that are important are always worth what it costs us to accomplish.

As it is in nature so it is in our hearts.

I mentioned briefly last week about an extended season God took me through of mortifying sin in my own heart. It was quite the process, and I believe God is wanting me to share it with you in an effort to help me remember and to hopefully help you and your marriage grow as well.

I was privileged to share this testimony with a group of ladies a few years ago, so I will use what I wrote then to share with you over the next couple of days.

Part One

Now that my children are grown the last few years have been a season of looking back at what has been and of looking forward to what will be.  Looking back has sadly brought much regret for the things that I didn’t do that I should have done and regret for the things I did do that I shouldn’t have done.  I felt much shame for what seemed to me to be failures.  I was frequently feeling discouraged.  I know this doesn’t sound very encouraging, but let me remind you that God’s ways are not our ways.  God was at work softening my heart, and preparing me for a wonderful work of His Grace.

Then, the Lord led me to read a book called Humility, by Andrew Murray.  It isn’t a very big book, but it is one that must be read slowly to digest.  I have been a member of this church for years!  I have heard most of the messages on Pride and Humility!  I should be well on my way to being a humble person, and I might add, I thought I was.  I was greatly deceived.

At the end of the book the author presents a 30-day challenge for those who truly desire to mortify pride and grow in humility.  As I read this page I felt as if the Lord was challenging me to do this:

The challenge was basically to put aside all reading, projects, journaling, and to focus on only one thing – asking God daily to reveal evidences of pride and to give grace to not only see it, but to repent of it.  Andrew Murray said that if I would do this then at the end of the month, I would begin seeing change in this area.

This is sadly where my journey of mortifying pride began.  I say sadly because I have been a Christian since December 7, 1969, and can honestly say that I am just beginning to see this sin.

First, let me explain to you that the first two weeks into my 30-day sabbatical I felt nothing.   In my pride I truly thought that maybe I was more humble than I realized.  The opposite was true.  After two weeks of continually asking God to show me evidences of pride in my life, Tom and I had a conflict.  It was on a Sunday morning while we were up front praying for people.  Tom was kneeling down praying behind a man, and a couple came up to me for us to pray for them.  I leaned down and tapped Tom on the shoulder.  When he looked up I TOLD him to come pray for this couple.  He looked at me like he didn’t understand, so I said it again!  He “obeyed” and joined me to pray for this couple.  On the way home, he said that I put him in a very awkward position.  He was praying earnestly for this man in response to the Holy Spirit’s leading, that is until I interrupted what God was doing and insisted he join me!   I was feeling justified in my mind about what had happened, while Tom stopped to fuel up the car.  I was sitting alone when I clearly heard the Lord say, “ your reaction to this conflict and what you did this morning is a demonstration of pride in your heart!  You assumed you knew better than Tom what I wanted him to do! I want you to humble yourself and repent to Tom.”  I  began to cry because I didn’t want to be the proud person that I was showing myself to be.  When Tom got in the car, he didn’t know what was wrong!  When I repented specifically for my pride, for assuming I knew what God was telling him to do the conflict seemed to dissolve.  From that day on the Lord began whispering in my ear evidences of pride as they happened in my thoughts, actions and motives.  It was quite overwhelming.  How could I have been so blind!

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I ask you, how is God answering your prayers to grow in godliness? Are you seeing evidences of God’s hand at work in your own heart? How are you responding as He whispers to your conscience?

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Little Messages

Mother’s Day was yesterday. It was a fun day, but our daughter and family, who live in Atlanta were greatly missed. I don’t think I’ll ever adjust to the distance between us, yet God in His kindness took thought of me in a very special way.

I love flowers of all kinds, but dahlias have a special place in my heart. Each year I anticipate what this year’s plants will look like. On Sunday morning I looked out our bedroom window and noticed a special surprise–three dahlias had opened over night, one each from separate plants. I have three children, each unique in the joy they bring to our family, so to see these three flowers each beautiful but different, was like God saying,

“You may not have all your children with you today, but here is a reminder for you from Me. Enjoy!”

How often God sends us little things like this to comfort us and let us know He sees, He hears, and most of all He cares for us. In what ways has God shown you His special attention lately? Oftentimes we miss it if we’re not paying attention, so let this be a reminder to keep your eyes open for little messages from your Heavenly Father.

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  • Uptown Altamonte – Jazz Jams Uptown will take place on Saturday, May 19th from 7p – 10p. Admission Charge.
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Happy Hour

We have been in the process of replacing the drain field for our septic system, not a fun project to spend money on, but necessary–oh, so very necessary. It’s necessary because we want all of it to work properly in order to dispose of things we don’t want bubbling up inside our home.

Once the roots were removed, the old system pulled out, the new pipes installed and covered with fresh dirt, something amazing happened. Our yard looked beautiful! We have a new yard with fresh sod. We have new dirt to plant new shrubs. We are certain whatever we plant will grow because the ground is no longer root-bound.

What seemed like a yucky thing to spend time doing has ended up being a beautiful thing.  In fact, we sat outside on our front porch last night just so we could look at how nice it all appears. The best part is knowing not only is what we see nice, but what we don’t see is nice too.

This reminded me of the time when God chose to move on my heart in a significant way. It was regarding my pride and God’s desire to help me cultivate humility. I plan to talk more about this next week, because I’m sensing God’s pull to revisit this season from my life. I believe it will help your marriage for it helped mine greatly. And I pray it will freshly impact my life as I need to be reminded of where I was and what God has done.

Now it’s time for Happy Hour and our Specials of the Week. We want to start with the new blog of a dear friend. Sheree has had more impact on my life in regards to going after the sinful cravings of my own heart, than anyone else. Not only has she demonstrated what the mortification (death) of sin looks like, but she has lovingly helped me learn how to do it myself.

Faith Rising

  • Shrinking Giants – An excellent metaphor on allowing the love of other things to replace the love of God in our lives. This could include the love for your spouse and the craving of their attention. All I can say is WOW!
  • Finding Goodness In Disappointment – Another reminder of how God’s goodness and sovereignty go hand-in-hand, always! Are you facing disappointment–this is a must read to readjust your thoughts to line up with the Truth of the Gospel.
Encourage Your Spouse
  • Cutting Through The Crap – Are your routines helpful or binding? It may be time to take a fresh look at what you’re doing and see if it’s still working for you.
  • Encouragement Barriers – An honest look at your own heart and whether or not you’re really encouraging to your spouse. Warning: You may be really convicted on this one.  
Journey To Surrender

Marriage Gems
Marriage Missions International
  • Love Needs Nurturing – Comes with a helpful compilation of tips on how to do this practically. Excellent!
Marriage Works
My Beloved Is Mine
  • Inner Demons – An honest, heart-wrenching post about the struggles after adultery in marriage. Read this whether this has occurred in  your marriage or not. We are all  susceptible to temptation and what better way to arm ourselves than to hear the testimony of others who have gone this way and regretted it. 
One Flesh Marriage
  • Sex With A Bun In The Oven – If you are expecting a baby there is hope and help for your sex life. And excellent post with great advice.
  • Then Comes Baby In A Baby Carriage – A must read for both husband and wife who are about to become parents or who have already entered into this fast-paced, exhausting lifestyle.
The Generous Husband
  • What She Wants For Mother’s Day – An extensive list if you’re still not sure what to give the mother of your children. Hint: Mother’s Day is this Sunday, in case you’ve forgotten.  

The Generous Wife
  • Build And Guard – the importance of protecting and fighting for what’s yours.

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Pick-A-Year Date Night

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Today I was in the grocery store when I paused to talk for awhile to an elderly man who has worked there for as long as I can remember. I mentioned to me his age, and I honestly had to ask him to repeat what he said.

“I’m 96.”

“96? Are you serious?” I couldn’t believe it!

He pulled out his driver’s license to confirm he was indeed born in 1916. That’s incredible on so many counts. He was born during World War I–unbelievable. And he’s still working loading my groceries in a bag with a huge smile on his face. I told him he had made my day; he had!

This gave me the idea for our featured date night idea.

Each year is full of it’s own highlights from history, sports, food and entertainment. Why not pick a year–any year–and celebrate it in a memorable way with your spouse? You can do something low-key at home, or go all out and enjoy a night on the town. The possibilities are endless. 

First, do some research about the year you’ve selected. After you’ve discovered lots of interesting facts, choose what sounds fun to you. It could be doing something together that was invented that year. Or fixing a meal based on a recipe from a favorite TV show. Whatever you do, have fun talking about the unusual events of the year.  I discovered that in 1977 France executed their last person by guillotine–certainly not an idea for your date, but an interesting fact to discuss nonetheless. The People History is a great resource where you can choose a year and find all you ever wanted to know about a specific year, and more.

The whole purpose is to have fun doing something together out of the ordinary. We can all use some inspiration, can’t we?

Following is an example of lists you could pull from to spark ideas for your date. We’ve chosen the year 1977 because this is the year I graduated from high school.

What year stands out to you as one worth exploring?

The year – 1977

Best Movie: Annie Hall. (Star Wars and Close Encounters of the Third Kind were all box office hits although they didn’t win an Oscar.)

Grammy Awards

Record of the Year: “Hotel California” … The Eagles
Best Song: “You Light Up My Life” … Joe Brooks
Best Album: “Rumours” … Fleetwood Mac
Male Vocalist: James Taylor … “Handy Man
Female Vocalist: Barbra Streisand … “Love theme from ‘A Star Is Born’ (Evergreen)”

Most Popular Television Shows

1. Laverne & Shirley (ABC)
2. Happy Days (ABC)
3. Three’s Company (ABC)
4. 60 Minutes (CBS)
5. Charlie’s Angels (ABC)
6. All in the Family (CBS)
7. Little House on the Prairie (NBC)
8. Alice (CBS)
9. M*A*S*H (CBS)
10. One Day at a Time (CBS)

Most Popular Books

Fiction:
1. “The Silmarillion” by J.R.R. Tolkien
2. “The Thorn Birds” by Colleen McCullough
3. “Illusions” by Richard Bach
4. “The Honourable Schoolboy” by John Le Carre
5. “Oliver’s Story” by Erich Segal

Nonfiction
1. “Roots” by Alex Haley
2. “Looking Out for #1” by Robert Ringer
3. “All Things Wise and Wonderful” by James Herriot
4. “Your Erroneous Zones” by Dr. Wayne Dyer
5. “The Book of Lists” by David Wallechinsky

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Stop Grey From Becoming The New Black And White

Last week we talked about Sexual Intimacy and what it takes to cultivate this closeness in marriage. In a culture that craves sex it is ironic that marriages are often sex-starved. Either for lack of sex or because of the quality of sex we’re experiencing.

There is a new book climbing the best-sellers list at lightning speed. The first in a trilogy of books titled, 50 Shades of Grey, it is a fictional story about a young, college student and her encounter with a successful, attractive businessman. I have read only a few sample pages available on Amazon, but it is obvious the hook is intended to draw women into Ana’s world as she begins a relationship with Christian Grey. Below is the book description on Amazon’s website:

Shocked yet thrilled by Grey’s singular erotic tastes, Ana hesitates. For all the trappings of success—his multinational businesses, his vast wealth, his loving family—Grey is a man tormented by demons and consumed by the need to control. When the couple embarks on a daring, passionately physical affair, Ana discovers Christian Grey’s secrets and explores her own dark desires.

Erotic, amusing, and deeply moving, the Fifty Shades Trilogy is a tale that will obsess you, possess you, and stay with you forever.

Why mention this obviously secular book? Because shockingly, it is growing in popularity among Christian women–women who enjoy reading a good book. But this book is hardly good, nor is it innocent. It has the ability to entice unsatisfied wives with a desire to have something more. It is discontentment unabated.

We write this post today as a warning; If you are not happy in your relationship with your husband, then seeking to fulfill this unhappiness in a fantasy world is only going to cause your marriage more harm.

When we were first married I loved to watch soap operas. It was a world totally separate from Tom. He had no idea of my afternoon obsession. I knew it wasn’t portraying a godly lifestyle, but I figured what harm could it do? It wasn’t real.

How deceived and naive I was. It wasn’t until I had a dream about this fantasy world (that was more like a nightmare), that I realized these shows were having a strong influence on me and my emotional state. By God’s conviction and His grace to say no to it, I haven’t watched one since!

How I wish I had had someone to warn me of the danger, the darkness, lurking in these fantasy worlds. These demons are invited into our homes and hearts and begin the process of dismantling our contentment.

1 Timothy 6:6, “But godliness with contentment is great gain…”

We understand there are women hurting in marriages led by distant husbands. They neglect their calling to lovingly lead and to lay down their lives for their wife as Christ did for the church. This is a real problem which causes real pain, but the answer can never be found in the fantasy world. This is a lie by the enemy who wants nothing more than to destroy every Christian home he can.

We are a part of a larger group called The Christian Marriage Bloggers Association. Together we are addressing this issue with the hope of helping wives say no to this temptation by providing knowledge about the danger of what some are calling, “Mommy Porn.”

Mommy Porn is on the rise in large part because of the anonymity available through e-readers. No longer can others see what you’re reading on the plane, in the mall, or even as you lie in bed next to your husband at night. This is providing easy access and a greater temptation to these genres of books, in much the same way as pornographic movies have enticed men and women through personal computers.

Are you drawn to romance novels? Do you find yourself longing to experience what the heroine (if you can call them that) does? This is a dangerous road, so we’re sounding the alarm. Please talk to someone. Confess your temptation. Acknowledge to God your discontentment. And most of all seek the grace of God to change. Only He can empower us to resist sin and it’s pull on our hearts. But we can choose not to open the book in the first place. This is a call to fight hard for the health of your marriage. It won’t be easy, but nothing worth fighting for ever is.

Following are more posts on this topic from members of CMBA:

Intimacy in Marriage – Fifty Shades of Great Sex With Your Husband

To Love, Honor and Vacuum – Finding God After Pornography and Why Kindles Can Wreck Your Marriage

Mystery32 – Porn for Women

The Alabaster Jar – O Be Careful Little Eyes What You Read

The Generous Husband – A Disturbing Trend In Female Sexual Preferences (Husbands, please read this post. You may be surprised to find your wife is tempted in this way.)

The Generous Wife – Escape Into Grey – Lori provides a great metaphor that may open your eyes to the danger of these types of books in a powerful way.

Marriage By Divine Design – Lead Us Not Into E-Book Temptation

AffairCare- 50 Shades and Infidelity, There Is A Connection

Finally, we want to share with you a video Josh McDowell has produced for his 1 Click Away campaign against pornography. We must warn you, it is graphic and powerful, but the message may just rock the hearts of those who are most addicted to pornography, and it may scare away those who are playing with soft porn.  This is our hope and prayer.

May God use these posts to rescue marriages from the sin that so easily entangles us!

How are you doing at resisting temptation? 

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Missed Connection

We had it all planned. I would visit our daughter and her family for a couple of days until Tom finished with a trade show. On his way home he would pass through Atlanta where I would meet him at the airport and board the same plane for home.

All worked out great, that is until Tom’s original flight was delayed. With only a 35 minute connection time between flights–guess what? We missed our connection and ended up spending one more night at our daughter’s home.  We were grateful for a plan B.

How like marriage! We can make the best of plans thinking all is going to go perfectly and then, someone doesn’t communicate or show up on time. What was supposed to be one way ends up being a completely different plan.

How do you handle missed connections in your marriage? It’s important to have a plan B before the need arises for one. If you don’t have one most likely an argument will ensue.

Plans change, but God is sovereign. Realizing this will help you go with the flow, instead of missing your connection. Why carry such unnecessary baggage? Nowadays you have to pay for extra luggage on airlines, no sense carrying the weight of conflict around in your relationship–that will really cost you in the long run, and it’s a weight we weren’t meant to carry.

How do you handle things when plans change? What happens when your spouse is late or when there is a miscommunication?

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Super Moon Day

Photo Credit: Tim McCord

Many couples were able to enjoy the phenomenon on Saturday night together. It was the closest the moon would be to the earth this year and coincided with the full moon, making what NASA scientists call a Super Moon. And it was spectacular from my vantage point–Marietta, Ga. Unfortunately, Tom was in Chicago and unable to “moon-gaze” with me, but that didn’t keep him from seizing the romantic moment. Following is the text and picture he sent me:

Not the same without you!

This made me smile and miss him all the more. How did you spend Saturday evening’s moon-watching event?

As a bonus we’ve compiled a new video using a variety of photographs from all over the world. It’s set to a song we love by John Elefante, That’s Why God Made The Moon. We hope you enjoy it!

Click here to watch video on Vimeo.


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Happy Hour

Here are the posts we deem as Specials of the Week for your weekend enjoyment!

Encourage Your Spouse

  • Encouraging Words: Bless – How do you use this word…bless your heart. Read this for some southern inspiration. 🙂

Intimacy In Marriage

Journey To Surrender

Marriage Missions International

  • Praying Over Hangers – a great lesson on turning our complaints into prayers for our spouse. It also includes a tool to help you pray more effectively for your spouse.
  • Opportunities At Our Doorstep – if you’re feeling tired and lacking hope in your marriage, please read this post. It will greatly encourage you!
My Beloved Is Mine
  • Marriage Bloggers Day Off – A fun story of how two marriage bloggers met for the first time. We don’t think it will be the last either.

Mystery32

  • In The Bedroom – a helpful post on how to spruce up your bedroom for sex and romance. 🙂

One Flesh Marriage

  • The Radical Wife – an excellent appeal to all wives. Are you willing to join the revolution?

The Generous Husband

The Generous Wife

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Spiritual Intimacy

Photo Credit: nathandahm.com

Today is the National Day of Prayer. It was established on the first Thursday in May beginning in 1988 by President Reagan when he signed it as a law in order to help America pause and consider the true source of help and hope for our country. This being the case, it seems appropriate to talk about the importance of spiritual intimacy in marriage.

As I write this I am flying over the Southern U.S. en route to Chicago. It is one of my favorite destinations, a place that holds many memories for Tom and me. We are cruising at an altitude of 35,000 feet, which always offers a unique view of the earth.

When we go about our daily routine it is easy to get caught up in the drama of the day. Our emotions play into our stresses, which can be a real source of anxiety, even fear in our hearts, thus affecting our marriage relationship. But from this vantage point the storm that looms large on the horizon seems small and insignificant. I am more aware of the beauty of the clouds than I am the effect of the storm.

In a similar way prayer helps us.

When we neglect this spiritual discipline as a couple, life and the problems that come with it can loom large causing us to worry. But when we choose to pray together about the things that trouble us, it’s as if the Lord raises our eyes above the trouble. He helps us notice the clouds of His faithfulness and makes the storms of life seem insignificant.

Do you and your spouse pray together? Is this something you purpose to do, but haven’t made time for? When was the last time you had the privilege of hearing what was on your spouse’s heart based on the prayer he/she prayed?

The Bible quotes Jesus as saying, “when two or more are gathered together in My name, I am there with you.”

Do we really believe that when we lie in bed at night, holding hands and offer a sincere prayer to God that He is right there with us? He is.

I think if we really believed we had His attention when we prayed together we would pray more regularly and fervently. In those moments God allows us to see our life and marriage from His vantage point—which is much higher than 35,000 feet.

So as we gather together to pray for our country this week, make time to pray with your spouse about the things closer to home; pray for your children, your parents, your co-workers, your church family. Pray for your pastors and your neighbors, but don’t forget to pray for each other and your marriage. Take time to linger in the presence of God and allow Him to give you both a fresh vision for what the next year can be. He sees it all, and He loves to help us see the future with eyes of faith, not based on what we see, but Who’s we are, and this makes all the difference!

Do you and your spouse pray together on a regular basis? If not, would you like to begin?

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Sex vs. Sexual Intimacy

Everyone is doing it, or so it would appear based on what television and Hollywood portray on a daily basis. But there is a huge difference between sex and sexual intimacy. Animals have sex for the sole purpose of procreating. It doesn’t require a marriage certificate to procreate–this accounts for the large number of abortions as well as unwed mothers.

Sheila Gregroire, from To Love, Honor and Vacuum, has an excellent post titled, Experiencing Spiritual Intimacy While You Make Love. She said:

One of the reasons that our culture has become more pornographic–and why things that were once considered sexually taboo are now pretty much mainstream–is that our culture has made sex into something only physical because they don’t have anything else. And yet they know they’re missing something, so they try more and more extreme things.

As Christians we can go beyond the physical act into the spiritual realm where Christ is glorified through our covenant relationship together. In order for us to experience true sexual intimacy it requires commitment, trust, vulnerability and covenant love. To put it another way, there must be a confidence that your spouse loves you and is committed to your relationship for life. There is a trust that is willing to be exposed both physically and emotionally, and in that moment a bond occurs between husband and wife that lets you know you are one flesh. This is the ultimate celebration of the unique relationship God created when He instituted marriage. And it is one we desire for all marriages to experience.

“We Christians need not approach the bedroom as the world does. Sex isn’t merely physical or all about oneself. The apex of intimacy is not multiple orgasms or more and more kinky sexual acts. The goal isn’t to have sex when we want, with whom we want, however we want, wherever we want without regard to others. We have the ultimate instead: a Gospel-driven life that shows a better way in every area — including the marital bedroom. And guess what? With God’s perfect design, we can end up having the most amazing sex!” – J, from Hot, Holy and Humorous blog. 

There are times when a husband and wife simply have sex; it is what many call a quickie, perfect for when you are limited on time. However, if this is all you are experiencing, then we want you to know there is a deeper level of intimacy you’re missing.

In order to reach this deeper level of intimacy there are things you can do:

  • Pray together asking God to bless your intimacy before you begin. This may seem awkward at first, but sexual intimacy was God’s idea. Trust Him to help you grow your physical relationship into all it can be.
  • Focus on your spouse and how to please him/her, rather than how good it feels for you. This is a simple way to love your spouse more than yourself. Doing this opens the door for greater intimacy. (Read The Gospel and the Bedroom by J, from Hot, Holy and Humorous, it is in our opinion, one of the best articles we’ve ever read.)
  • Take time. Don’t be in a hurry. This is where it is good to plan time away together for the purpose of having extended time for sexual intimacy.

We want to end by agreeing with J:

I pray for each married couple to experience the Gospel in their bedroom — to know the overwhelming love of Christ and to share it with their spouse.

“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:17-19


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It Takes Time To Make Time

Before we were married it took no effort at all to plan our next date. We wanted to be together as much as our time would allow. But once we were married this began to gradually change; it had to. Life demanded we move on, so to speak. But moving on in the wrong way can actually damage our relationship.

It’s common for couples to relax their intentionality once they’ve started a life together. After all you’re always together. What needs to be planned? The answer is simple:

R.O.M.A.N.C.E.

Romance before marriage has limits, that is if you’re committed to a moral, God-honoring relationship. But romance after marriage is when it gets really fun. Flirting is actually encouraged in order to grow a healthy marriage. So let’s list out some practical ways to incorporate genuine romance in our daily routine:

  • Tell your spouse you love them daily.
  • Kiss often and kiss long.
  • Hold hands when walking–anywhere.
  • Send unexpected texts to your spouse letting them know you’re thinking of them.
  • When they call during the day, make sure there is a smile in your voice reserved for them.
  • Plan regular date nights. They can be away from home or in your own backyard. Figure out what works best for the season you’re in, and do it.
  • Play with your spouse’s hair, feet, hands, or whatever body part they like caressed.

Trying these ideas may help you recover those romantic feelings you had before you said, “I do.” And they will most likely lead to more–we’ll talk about that tomorrow! 🙂

What ways do you plan for romance? Do you still flirt with your spouse?

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Lost

Have  you ever lost something precious to you? I have–just this past weekend as a matter of fact. I lost my journal. It’s ironic after posting about my journal-writing last week, to realize I had no idea where it was. You see, I’ve spent the past week helping my daughter move, so I haven’t had any time to sit and journal. I didn’t have a clue as to when it went missing. The last time I remembered having it was on our last date night which was a week ago Monday!

My journal is like my heart, for this is where I pour out my life to the Lord. He has used this small notebook to help me sort out my deepest thoughts. And to say I miss it is a huge understatement. So Tom and I prayed last night that the Lord would help me find it. He knows where it is, so for Him to show me is not a difficult task.

Imagine my delight when I listened to our voicemail this morning. A woman called to say she had found my journal and left her phone number for us to call her back. Wow! I am thrilled to say the least!

This whole scenario got me thinking about how often we can lose something precious in our marriage and not even realize it. Things like: time together, sexual intimacy, romantic dates, spiritual intimacy, friendly conversations. This happens in all marriages from time to time. We are human and our relationship is ever growing. The most important question to ask yourself is do you notice when you’ve lost it? Or do you continue on with life oblivious to what’s been left behind?

Think of this post as your phone call telling you to look around and see if something precious is missing from your marriage? If there isn’t anything missing, then thank God for His work in your relationship. If you find there is something missing, then there’s work to be done.

Sadly, many couples choose to quit at this point, hoping to find what’s missing in another relationship. But this is a lie from the enemy. If your marriage is lacking, know that whatever you walk away from in this relationship will simply follow you in your next relationship. It is better, by far, to stay the course and work on recovering what’s been lost.

Tomorrow we’ll continue this topic on a deeper level, but in the meantime, ask your spouse if they sense anything is missing from your relationship. Just because you don’t think there is doesn’t mean your spouse hasn’t come to a different conclusion. You want to be on the same page when it comes to assessing the condition of your marriage. Better to know now, than to be surprised at how far you’ve grown apart in the years to come.

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Mark Your Calendar

♥ Things To Do In Orlando ♥

Cinco de Mayo is this coming Saturday. We offered a list of things to do to make this Mexican holiday romantic last year. Check them out HERE.

CENTRAL

NORTH

  • Eustis – Friday Night Street Fest on May 4th from 6p – 10p. There will be live music, vendors, children’s areas as well as food and drinks for purchase.

EAST

SOUTH

WEST

  • Winter Garden – The Garden Theatre presents The Music Man now through May 27th. See website for dates, times and prices.
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The Day


Journal from May 18, 2005:

I woke this morning feeling the weight of time.  As the days dwindle down until “The Day” is here, I am realizing how small I am, and I am tempted to fear.  Tomorrow is uncertain; I have no guarantees.  Yet, look at how God is faithful – always so faithful to me.  I am happy, and I am sad.  The regrets crowd my thoughts of what could have been, although I have more confidence in what God has done than in what I did not do.  This is the strength that brings me joy.  It upholds me when I want to fall.  And it makes me smile, when the tears build in my eyes.

Yes, my daughter is getting married in nine days!  Nine days!!  When she was born 10 days late, how well I remember that 9th day waiting for her to arrive.  Now it all seems surreal – that in nine days I will let her go, and she will become a Mrs. in her own right.  There are no epidurals that can numb this pain.  It is deep, yet rewarding, like the birth of a child.  For 21 years she has been my focus and daily concern.  I have prayed that she would make right choices and follow hard after God.  I have prayed for her husband for years – who now has a name and a face.  I am delighted at how good God has been to me, and most of all how good He has been to her.

First a baby, then a toddler, we taught her everything she knew.  Next it was home schooling that became our passion, and the preteen years kept us busier than we ever expected.  In high school we cheered at every ball game, and we were there for each milestone of her young life.   Praying, always praying for God to form in her the likeness of His Son.

I will soon walk down the aisle escorted by my son, as Mother of the Bride.  I will look into the faces of all our friends and family gathered to celebrate with us, and for a moment will realize with deep gratitude the influence they have had on my little girl’s life.  If it weren’t for the church functioning in our lives the way God intended, I wouldn’t be walking with my son at this moment.  It will be a walk of triumph, not in my accomplishments, but in God’s faithfulness.

Then, the music will stop.  The candles will flicker.  Everyone will rise and turn as my husband of 26 years, who I love more than I ever thought possible, will begin his final walk with her at his side.  Such a godly man!

He has led her for 21 years.  He has been her hero and the one who has shown her by example what a Biblical husband looks like.  He has guarded her heart diligently, and his moment to give her away to another awaits him at the end of this walk.

My daughter has grown into a beautiful woman of God!  On this day there will certainly be tears, but they will be tears of rejoicing in what God has done, and tears full of great hope for the future.

My life isn’t over by any means; I am just finished with one chapter, a chapter that I love so much.   Like finishing a book brings great satisfaction in seeing how all the events come together; I am in awe of how perfectly God has led her to this moment.  He is the One I celebrate as I count down the days to “The Day”.

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Spoiled

Journal Entry from June 2006:

The expiration date said June 25th.  I have never had to notice this part of the orange juice carton, that is, until now.  My 24 year old son, who loves orange juice so much that he drinks a large glass of it every morning on his way to work, married his beautiful bride on June 3rd.  That was 4 weeks ago, and I have to throw away something because he no longer lives here; this is no longer the place he calls home.  I couldn’t be more thrilled, yet why am I crying?

I have prayed for years that my children would grow up to love the Lord and to love the local church.  They do!  I have prayed that they would love being a part of our family and call us not only their parents, but their friends.  They do!  I have prayed for the day to see them fall in love and marry their best friend.  Two of them have!

So, why am I crying over spoiled orange juice?

The answer is obvious, because I have loved being a mother of a house full of little children, and those days are over.    I loved being a mom of teenagers full of life and activity, and that season is over.  Now that my three children are in their twenties, I love watching God reveal His plan for their lives.  He will be faithful now as He has been faithful in the past.

I am learning that God has many surprises for me throughout my lifetime.  Some I’ve anticipated and others were unexpected blessings.  Whether I realize it or not, God is at work in every moment of every day.  Change is hard, but change is so good!  It pushes me out of my normal routines and makes me embrace something new.  He used a carton of orange juice to remind me of what used to be.

Suddenly, I have an overwhelming desire to go to Publix and be different – I think I’ll buy some Pomegranate juice I hear it’s good for you, and it just so happens that my youngest daughter, who still lives at home, really loves it! 🙂

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The Waiting Room

Yesterday I shared my reflections of growing up as the daughter of a neighborhood Pharmacist. Today I’ll share my reflections of letting go. This story was published in a book titled, Letters From The Waiting Room–by Lewis Seifert, in an effort of helping others as they wait for an answer.

My Mom was the first to notice that my Dad was acting strange.  He would take his dinner dishes into the bathroom sink.  He would miss turns as he drove to the church they had attended together for years.  Yes, he was still driving at the time.

My Mom was afraid.

She asked me to go with her to The Mayo Clinic for a complete evaluation of his health.  It was a 3 hour trip that required us to stay overnight.  We arrived to his first appointment only to wait.  The room was full of others who were also waiting for the same thing – to be seen and diagnosed.

My Mom was reading a magazine, I was writing in my journal, and my Dad was just sitting as we waited to hear his name called.

It was in that moment that I heard a still, small voice whisper to me, “I’m about to call your Dad’s name and this time you won’t be able to come with him.”

Surprisingly, this thought didn’t frighten me, but it brought comfort and peace.   I realized that there was another who was carefully watching over my Dad’s soul, and I could trust Him.

After two more weeks of appointments and tests, an MRI of his brain was scheduled.  I’ll never forget that day; the nurse escorted him out to the waiting room and said, “The doctor wants to see him right away in his office.  All other tests have been canceled for today.”

The walk to his office was slow and evenly paced, for that was how my Dad walked since he fell ill.  I wanted to run and scream and fight back, but we walked slow and steady holding back tears and the dreaded truth.

The doctor confirmed what we had suspected, “Your Dad has a brain tumor that is malignant and inoperable!”

My Dad didn’t understand.  He only wanted to know if he could play golf, to which the doctor kindly responded, “You can do whatever you feel up to doing, Mr. Gray.”

My Dad was the only happy one in the office, and quickly replied, “Doc, that’s the best news I’ve heard all day.”  He didn’t have the ability to realize his dour diagnosis, and we realized what a kindness this was for him.

Eight weeks later my Dad was completely bed-ridden and unable to talk.  He never played golf again.  As the Hospice nurse cared for him she informed us that his death was imminent.  I stood by his bed offering him drops of water on a tiny sponge while I cried.  This was the moment God had told me was coming.  He was about to open the door of Heaven and call my Dad’s name, and I knew that I wouldn’t be able to go with him.  I was sad in knowing that I was sitting with my Dad for the final time in this life, but I was rejoicing in the fact that I was about to be as near to Heaven as I had ever been.  Eternity, I realized, was only a closed door away from me.

How grateful I was that my Dad had walked with me down the aisle of our church when I was 10 years old as I responded to the Gospel.  He had walked me to My Savior then, and now it was my turn to walk him to His Savior forever. What a privilege, yet one filled with sadness and grief.

I was especially grateful for the way Tom cared for me during these two months. He often had no words to say, but his arms were always there to hold me in my grief. He was a strong support and encouraged me to do whatever I needed to do to help my parents. It may sound strange, but our marriage grew stronger during this time. I discovered how strong our love had become when we were tested with such a difficult situation. God was faithful to us, and I am forever grateful.

How has your spouse helped you when you’ve faced difficulty? Has it brought you closer together? 

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My Dad

Our first post in our Reflection series is actually reflections from my childhood, years before I would become Mrs. Tom Walter. I wrote this the year after my Dad died, which you’ll hear more about tomorrow.

From June 2004:

Father’s Day is approaching and the memories are bidding me to take a walk with them down familiar paths.  I am reluctant, but decide early on that these little jaunts are what give life meaning and make difficulties bearable.

Our town was small. Being the daughter of the neighborhood druggist, I witnessed first-hand how to care for those in trying times.  The store opened in the summer of ’61.  I was two.  My Mom took care of the books, while my Dad took care of the customers.  There were longs days and many long nights.  It was a time when honesty and integrity were the store managers and love and compassion were the employees.  Often customers would thank my dad for being there for them.  Affectionately they called him “Doc”.  He had a way of not only helping what ailed them, but he put a smile on their faces by joking with them.  He was one of the most respected men in our community because he was there for people in their struggles and came along side them to offer care and concern.

Being available was something for which my dad never complained.  He offered 24-hour service to anyone in need of medication, even if it was an over-the-counter drug.  He would sleep at night next to the telephone and often it would ring.  It was normal to hear him up in the night going to meet someone at the pharmacy.  Life revolved around the store and many of my fondest memories took place in that small building on Silver Star Road.

The sounds of juicy hamburgers sizzling on the grill, large french fries in the hot fryer and thick milkshakes whirring in the Hamilton Beach milk shake machine; laughter from the cash register and phones ringing behind the counter; these are the sounds that still ring fresh in my memory.  For my young eyes, the toy aisle never disappointed me.  My job was to help my dad order the best and newest toys of the season.  Each year I would pick one toy that I wanted as payment for help; there were Barbie dolls with the trendiest accessories and Clackers: two glass, marbleized balls suspended from a string, which took our town by storm.  I loved Clackers, and my arms had the bruises to prove my devotion.  My taste buds found delight at the candy counter.  It seemed endless in the varieties available to my cravings, and my cavities proved that I was a dedicated sampler of its offerings.

“Our pills are your pals,” was the store’s motto, and it was displayed on the magnetic signs that hung from both sides of the white Volkswagen bug, that served as the delivery car.  Young men in our town would apply for the job of driving that little car; making free deliveries to the families too sick or too old to come to the store.  The car never had a radio, as my dad wanted to insure that the boys worked hard representing our store well.  They were required to wear a tie, even though there was no air-conditioning in the car that traveled around the hot, Florida streets.  Well-dressed and without music, many young men, surprisingly came to love pharmacy by my dad’s example and his requirement of a strong work ethic.

As I grew into the pre-teen years, my favorite part of the store became the jewelry section.  Necklaces, earrings and rings were displayed in glass cases with shelves that rotated as you pushed a small, black button.  Row after row of beautiful jewelry caught my eye.  Once I tried on a ring and quickly discovered that I couldn’t get it off.  It was too small.  I panicked.  Not wanting to get in trouble, I desperately tried to remove the ring.  The harder I pulled, the more swollen my finger became.  Finally, I showed my dad.  His response frightened me, but taught me a lesson.  He said with a smile on his face, “I guess we’ll have to call the Fire Department and have them cut off your finger!”  I was horrified, but fortunately, with soapy water, the ring lost its grip.  I never tried on a ring that wasn’t mine again!

Family vacations were always close to home, since we could not afford a pharmacist to work for my dad.  Whenever the family ventured out-of-state he usually stayed home taking care of the needs of our neighbors.  I missed him, but I came to realize that his example would mean more to me through the years.

We lived a simple life, yet the lessons taught me are constant reminders of what is truly important.  I often wonder if the medicine my dad prescribed was the real remedy for his sick customers or if his kindness and friendliness was the key to their well-being. The store motto should have been, “Pals are your pills!” My dad loved life and loved others.  He was a true pal.

He passed away on January 3, 2004, and this will be my first Father’s Day without him.  His funeral was a time for the hundreds of people he faithfully served to come and share their story.  It was a moment that cemented in my heart how wonderful my dad was.  Often the truly great among us are those who do what they do faithfully, unselfishly and without complaint.  My dad was a skilled pharmacist, a faithful friend, a devoted husband and a great Father.  I miss him, but I’m grateful for the path he marked out for me.  Knowing that I can walk this road following his lead makes life worthwhile – in good times and in bad.

I offer this familiar quote to my Dad, “Thanks for the memories!”  I am your devoted daughter and biggest fan!

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How has your upbringing influenced who you are today? It could be for good or for ill, but know that God can take our background, our story and redeem it for His glory.

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